Lesson 320:

My Father gives all power unto me….

What God Wills is what is. Period. In the beginning of this section “ What is the Last Judgment”, it wraps up with this statement: ”This is God’s final Judgment: "You are still My holy Son, forever innocent, forever loving and forever loved, as limitless as your Creator, and completely changeless and forever pure. Therefore awaken and return to Me. I am your Father and you are My Son."(W-pII.10.5.). Everything else is just plain ego arrogance… all the pettiness and ‘waiting till’….

My only purpose, as is so with the entire Sonships, is to accept the atonement for myself. This is done by allowing forgiveness to transform ancient hate into present love. We accept the miracle, which does nothing but merely undo, canceling out the interference in the sending and receiving signal to the awareness love being the one reality.

My job is to simply allow the Holy Spirit to decide for God, for me. This allows for the condition of peace, which puts me in touch with the state of grace which is natural to spirit always and forever. This changes my perception from one as a separate character in the dream; powerless to its dictates, to the one as the dreamer of the dream; with all power….

This is the one perception alternative: see the ego divisive dream or see the Present, with the Holy Spirit.

I think it’s important to not dream God up within the residual construct of ‘this world’ when we practice a lesson such as today’s; “My Father gives all power to me”, and simply remember it is truth, which we now are consistently identifying with, which we are dealing with at this stage of the lessons. It is the Holy Spirit in us, speaking to the truth in us, through the lessons and our translated personhood mechanism. We listen with the mind beyond the mechanism and respond with the love forever extending itself…

There is no place for smallness now. We have been wholly invited, through our choosing the Atonement; through our holy relationship and unified purpose, to the ‘real world, beyond persons and opinions and circumstances and hierarchies. “There is no order of difficulty in miracles” is beginning to make perfect sense. We are free, NOW. And we can see everyone and circumstance as Love/a call for Love, extending. NOW.

We are Christ. the limitless Son of God, in which all willed with God, must be done.

Always we circle back to, “Do I will to be hostage to the ego or host to God” as I play at this awaking game? For it has already been done… the past is gone, its script written and played out in every possible regurgitated form. It was answered with the Atonement: “this could not be”, in the twinkling of an instant. How long will we drag out this petty competition with God game? If you’ve touched noses with ACIM, the obviousness of the ego’s script; the fraudulent victim/perp. role with its fear based defenses has dawned on some level. And if you have been practicing the lessons to this point, you’ve at least a sense of the story being decayed and boring.

The freshness of honesty with self has become imperative. The discernment that the false as false has reached the access of mind and awakening is imminent. “The truth is true. And only the truth is true…” This is the statement that resounds in the soundtrack of right-mindedness. Heaven is here, now. And you are it… Like the prayer in today’s lesson asserts: “Your Will can do all things in me, and then extend to all the world as well through me. There is no limit on Your Will. And so all power has been given to Your Son.” ~

Lesson 307:

Conflicting wishes cannot be my will…

Aha… It changed my life to actually see this principle played out in the decision making of my so-called life… As with all the ways the Course serves up this message: There only two, exclusive thought systems; love and fear… And of these, only one is real and true... From each, an entire world can be seen~ and each world can only be seen when the mind chooses alignment with its thought system… Nothing else is going on. Also, the vehicle moving one from one thought system to the other is choice… all-encompassing, uncompromising choice. Something that hooked me up for a long time was that I would have moments of what I was sure at the time was total surrender into God’s Will, with all its peace and joy and certainty… And the next thing you know, I’d be back struggling to survive and feeling ashamed of doing such a lousy job of it, and making myself wrong about being here again. Then duh!, ~ I saw it. I still had private thoughts about time and space being real which I had tucked away in some secret place and wasn’t recognizing as, too, the forgiveness opportunity it is… Cuz, duh! The eternal present is the only time and place where. It is real. There is an unexplainable actuality to it; where one joins with what is… and there is no question about the truth because you’re already what you see… This recognition, in turn, made my way that much lighter…

When I feel conflicted in anyway, whether it be in thoughts and thought or thought with feelings, here’s the inquiry…

What has the state been when I have unquestionably felt the presence of God? Peaceful, to begin… then expansive, life-filled, loving, expressive, joyous… Yes. Starting with surrendering my “I know (anything)”, into the abyss of the currently unknown, only to once again recognize my Self in the already known… It usually looks (in form) like I start listening and stop directing… It feels like innocence and childlike reverence to whatever a situation is, for the holiness it must contain. This is usually accompanied with a bright, joyous, anticipation of experiencing it… This state is the state I recognize as one with my creation and God...

So any time I feel conflicted in anyway, I can’t possibly be in touch with myself in truth, let alone be guided in a way that results in this feeling of peaceful joy, right? And, after all, that kind of happiness is all I have ever wanted in the fires place. Isn’t that the feeling we’re always seeking in the end?

Thoughts leave not their source…

And only thoughts thought with God are true. And truth not only sets us free, it sets aright the goal at the onset of our seeming actions in this world of forgiving dreams… And certainty replaces conflicting wishes in our mind…

Lesson 290:

My present happiness is all I see…

This is what I notice; there is no place but here. There’s no such thing as better or worse, I am no longer interested in ‘improving’ the dream. All those old stand-by’s validate time for changing are now seen as silly delay tactics employed by a false identity to hang on as long as it could. The thing is, that that identity was false. It never actually had a place in the mind of God’s Son, save it be dreaming… I have lost interest in figuring anything out. I don’t care about the story and only stories feel something which seems different than love; happiness peace and oneness…

I have seen that there is no way to do it right … or wrong… there’s no place and nothing to get… The Atonement answered the idea of separation completely! Simply by accepting the Atonement for myself, the goal is changed. I am interested only in God’s Will, which is my will, for perfect happiness for all, and what I see is how the Holy Spirit orchestrates every minute detail for ever one to complete in our awareness the accomplishment of the universal experience of happy truth…

When the seeking was done, and my happiness was felt exclusively within; the joy present was the presence of Self, everywhere and in everyone…

The past and future have no home here. In my here/now, only the present lives and gives life; in other words, Love’s presence and my awareness and identification with it. I have no interest in what yesterday means and when I notice a conversation going in that direction, the obvious red-flag question arises: for what possible reason would we reference past, whatever’s? To substantiate now? The past is gone and what it seemingly contains that we would apparently discuss, are the dynamics of a time/space continuum which has no basis in reality… The present is complete, Now, stands on its own. The present is where forgiveness sees past the current dream-character identification into the ever-present eyes of love; giving and receiving as one… And it is always, already, a state of happy enough-ness…

My present happiness is all I see because any variation on that, is merely an opportunity to fulfill my function of forgiveness, which instantly puts me in touch with my function of perfect happiness present now…

I accept the Atonement as my only function here and everything is enough. The certainty of the peace of God yield no need… I can no longer see any ‘needs improvement’ signs.

Lesson 272:

How can illusions satisfy God’s Son?...

“Father, the truth belongs to me. My home is set in Heaven by Your Will and mine. Can dreams content me? Can illusions bring me happiness? What but Your memory can satisfy Your Son? I will accept no less than You have given me. I am surrounded by Your Love, forever still, forever gentle and forever safe. God’s Son must be as You created him.”

This lesson is one of only two lessons (both under the section: What is the Christ?)which are stated as questions… Only the Son of God can answer them. Only the Christ knows.

Illusions of the self, or the self-concept, in other words the false, which then form what it desires, cannot understand satisfaction. It can want and crave and make itself a slave to craving, engaging the addiction mechanism of obsession and compulsion, adequately distracting one from truth and making the false seem imperative by enacting the death script and instilling the fear of God. But distraction isn’t satisfaction… The self-concept cannot identify with truth and only truth can satisfy what is truth.

We are as God created us… His Will is our own… And, nothing but doing God’s Will ever satisfy Christ, the Son of God. Period… Can we just for once and all, strip down and let go all fancy of illusion’s childish dreams of a life apart from God, and rest in the belly of the truth?

Let’s get off it and quit pretending… How can illusions satisfy God’s Son? We know the answer. We are truth: Christ, the holy Son of God… we are the very meaning of satisfaction; for in our creation is our Father’s completion… And illusions are, well… illusion are really nothing…

Lesson 253:

My Self is ruler of the universe…

We often talk about this topic in the Course. There is no possibility that any thing could happen in my universe, save it by way of my Self. Regardless of how I focus my attention; outward~ so as to see a small and frightened me in a big bad world, or inward~ so as to see from the Self the vast and glorious light of creation within and beyond the world of form. This, incidentally, allows for me to focus my attention to accept that thought littleness, as just one of many belief options within the illusion within the vast array of belief options which are not my Self, but dreamed up by me, instead…. Which I can do with what I please…

You know, when I came to this lesson the first time around, as with other similar statements in throughout the Course, I felt almost embarrassed. I definitely felt it was an idea arrogant to my place of reverence to a power-greater-than-myself, which I felt beholden to for my success in forgiving myself and awakening unto Him.

It was a difficult lesson for me and one I felt dishonest, due to my perceived unworthiness, to do. However, being the ‘good-student’, I did my best… What I received at that time was a strong, warm feeling message, that I would understand in time, but that from the point of reference I then held, I was too identified with littleness to see the big picture, let alone see that my Self ruled over it. So I accepted that I didn’t know; after all, up to this point in my so-called life, I had been wrong about everything else, why not this… I felt an inner instruction to read and reread, giving my understanding over to the Holy Spirit, the section in Chapter 15 called Littleness versus Magnitude; which I did every day for 30 days. I began to get a sense of that the ‘me’ point of reference I had been holding, and taken for granted as true, was mere wrong. And furthermore, that it was arrogant and a blatant rejection of accepting the atonement for myself. In other words, it was merely a delay tactic.

I gave myself over to the miracle, accepting the Holy Spirit was within my mind and therefore at least part of myself, which freed me to allow for correction of my small and limited perspective. And I began to feel the expanse… Every shadow/belief was filter up and seen as nothing but perspective and I became able to let them go to the idea of nothingness. My willingness to surrender my private mind as it revealed itself became the obvious next step instead of the hidden terror it had been undercover… And now; now all that was different is seen with the eyes of sameness… truly… it’s a miracle… NOW has (as it always was in truth) become my only point of reference, my only perspective…

Through my willingness to be wrong about everything, the my has given way to the Self, which has shown me Heaven on earth; Christ in all my brothers and a world of Creation where Love gives unto itself, receives and expands and expresses the Self in everyone, everything, every situation and circumstance…

My Self is ruler of the universe…

Lesson 102:

I share God's Will for happiness for me… And I accept it as my function now…

Sounds simple enough… And truly it is, because it is the truth. If I am not feeling wholly joyous, I am seeing what is not there. This is a merely a call for love and unity which forgiveness answers instantly, the moment it is recognized. What’s painful about that? What is painful is only my desire to remain apart from Self to perpetuate my misbeilef that special-ness can offer me happiness.

If God extended His joy and His Son was the result, and I am His Son, how can I be anything but happy? An extension, unlike it mimicked opposite, projection, is for the purpose of inclusion. God’s love includes all creation and knows not of exclusion. Projection on the other hand, is the defense against this all-inclusiveness. It is the mechanism by which the idea of separation, once perceived, is maintained. What if I looked on you and only saw myself? How long would I maintain my rejection and joylessness then? How quickly would I offer every joyous thought and loving caress for you to feel and join with me in unending embrace and play and freedom? If I don’t separate you from me in my mind and project you over ‘there’, you are part of all that I am.

What if I saw that you held the golden key to the gates of unending happiness, where pain and fear were but silly thoughts disregarded as ridiculous somewhere in an ancient past, hardly a remnant on the crystal mind of perfect happiness and peace, being the effect of the Great Love of the Source that can have no opposite? What if the clear awareness that this precious, golden key belonging to you must be joined with the one I have tucked inside my heart. The deep awareness I seem to have been born with, as you were yours, not knowing its purpose but understanding it’s invaluable worth. What if together we realize that this was the moment we’ve been waiting for all our lives; to see it’s meaning and at last its purpose; exposing all purpose within this one instant when we fit our keys together, and we can enter but together? How long would I deprive my self of the kingdom of eternal happiness, if all of this where so? Wouldn’t my little special, ‘whatever’, that I keep only to ‘myself’ to make sure ‘I get mine’, be joyously exposed for the hollow fraud it is? And wouldn’t I accept this gladly? Ah, yes….

Happiness is ours. Right here, right now. We cannot not have it. Will we continue to answer to the seductive beckoning of the addiction to substitute the quest for pleasure and avoidance of pain when everything we wanted we have merely to receive wholeheartedly? Is a little pleasure this body has to offer worth the price of eternal bliss? Accepting the Atonement for ourselves answers no to all question of the pain/pleasure addiction as well as all other dressed-up, nothingness posers, and answers YES to us, the Son of God, who shares His Will for happiness with Him.

With deepest joy and appreciation I join with you in the one function we have, which we accept joyously, today…. sharing God’s Will for happiness, by seeing you and I are one...

Lesson 74~musings

Lesson 74:

There is no will but God's…

Isn’t this the only thing that could be true? It always circles ‘round to the same crucial point~ SOURCE: the experience can only reflect or give birth to an experience like itself (its source). It doesn’t have anything else from which to draw. Everything anything is made of and must come from the intrinsic composition of the source itself. Yes? ! And thoughts leave not their source ~we are the LOVE thought of God extended as His Son…
Okay, so in looking closely at all perceived experiences, one must look to its source for meaning. This is where the ego has really had a field day with me, in the past. Loving to examine itself and figure out “why”, the ego, dressed up in “spiritual’ garb and using my desperation to find God, to apologize, to do it right, to be good… would hook me into the loop of seemingly intense and thorough examination of the psyche. “Figure it out so I don’t do it again, but rather ‘create the reality I want’…” Now here’s the thing, and I think many might relate to this pattern, walking the “problem” back to the where the problem began within this world, [“this is because of the way I was raised, this happened, that… Even, ‘this is because of the way I interpreted what happened when it happened (attempting to be responsible)]. It doesn’t work. At best it is a stimulating mental game serving up the big prize of little insights and it feels like you’re ‘getting somewhere’s, which keeps you in the game. At worst it is an exercise in futility and utter despair. This is because we never really get back to the source.
The source of problems /conflicts is not in this world! It is in the mind! ~It is not in the mind housed in the body and ego that we tend to identified with. THERE IS NO WORLD! THERE IS NO BODY AND THERE IS NO EGO!
THERE IS ONLY GOD AND GOD’S WILL CREATING!!! Nothing else is really going on, dude~…There is only the BELIEF(looped back on itself over and over)… that one error, one tiny mad idea of special ness that could obliterate Creation, taken seriously. That is some powerful mind, eh? Its magnitude is really beyond conceptualization. ~Hmm, power such as this must come from a Source so immense… well, you do the math…
Just because we dreamed a dream, a mass hallucination even, of misusing this power doesn’t change the power of the Source from which it came. That Source is what it is and every creation extended from it could only be what it is… the rest is made up… the Atonement principle undid all effects of this silly error. The miracle allows us to shine the light we are on every darkened thought of make-believe we are willing to uncover and dis-identify with. Forgiveness is the practical application of this principle while the mind still thinks it's split and while it re-members itself.
When ever I have sincerely and wholeheartedly attempted to find the True Source of who I am, I have succeeded. Every one of the workbook lessons are geared to this homecoming, this recognition ~ The description of experience given within today’s lesson really captures the immediacy and immensity of peace I have experienced~ every single time I have unequivocally given over to the Truth and allowed released of my ‘self’ to it. I notice myself sinking, even dissolving into PEACE~ “Sink into it and feel it closing around you… you will feel a deep sense of joy and an increased alertness… Joy characterizes peace…
Of course in the beginning the experience was only fleeting, easily discounted as ‘my imagination’ but yet, it called me back to return again and again, increasing in substantial significance, until the ‘reality’ of this peace and surety could no longer be denied. It gradually became more real than the story of the so-called life of danét. So much so, that the lines between the ‘two worlds’ [peace and conflict /oneness and differences] began to blur and eventually the ‘two worlds’ began to blend into One experience of total peace occasionally freckled with seeming conflicts or problems, which really have taken on a shadowy insubstantial essence~ now seen as what they are, forgiveness lessons…
Talk about JOY! ~Ah, the deep abiding joy that comes with knowing that seriously, nothing can rock my world. Nothing can intrude upon the Holy Son of God, himself. This is my will ~the one I share with my Source that created me Love, like himself~ the one I share with you, my brother’s who are one with me.
God’s Will is perfect happiness and there is no will but God’s! Thank God! All glory to God and us ~for we share his Will and nothing else…