GOD IS THE LOVE IN WHICH I FORGIVE…

Lesson 46:

“God is the Love in which I forgive…”

Any unease~ from thinking something ‘needs to be done’ to ‘I prefer this’, to ‘I wish I or you didn’t or hadn’t…’ ~anything that doesn’t “let all things be exactly as they are” is a red flag or rather a beacon of light showing me my un-forgiveness, ~showing me what I have given reality to through my belief in it, therefore, reinstituting in my mind, the belief that there could be any thing outside of my One Self in God, as God created me… ~It was a long time coming to this~ First, there ‘were others’ and 'myself', to be forgiven by me. ~Others: better or worse, people I had wronged and had wronged me, those who had done the unforgivable ~ mostly myself.
Hey, this is twisted; but back when I started this conscious reevaluation of my life through ACIM, I actually thought it was some kind of loyalty to God to see myself as “guiltiest-should have known and acted better-est” ~Now I can laugh at the quaint absurdity of that ‘specialness’ idol ~equal to all the many others I have sought to replace God/my Self/the Son of God with. All of them are the same~ defiling the Alter where God placed Himself… Only this Alter matters to me now… And truly, it has been and is forgiveness ~forgiveness of every, single not-love thing. That forgiveness has shown me the eternal light of love that is the only thing I am. …And, there you are…
This is what ‘accepting the atonement for myself’ looks like in my life… I really like the way it looks… Like it says in chapter 9 of the text:
“Atonement is for all, because it is the way to undo the belief that anything is for you alone. To forgive is to overlook. Look, then, beyond error and do not let your perception rest upon it, for you will believe what your perception holds. Accept as true only what your brother is, if you would know yourself. Perceive what he is not and you cannot know what you are, because you see him falsely. Remember always that your Identity is shared, and that Its sharing is Its reality.
I ask myself, ”Can I see only the guiltless… only innocence…totally give up my rights to the “having been wronged, ‘secialness’?” Yes must mean not no. Being honest with myself has not been easy ~ It’s amazing how one cherishes trumped-up importance.
Yet the truth beyond (which these symbols called A Course in Miracles point to) sang to me the whisper of the ancient song whose melody I found I longed to remember and hear and sing brilliantly~ kept getting stronger… So, the necessary ‘upturning of my beliefs’ fell into rhythm. And with it, the forgiving mechanism and questioning every value I ever held… Finally, innocence is all I want to see … Having is known by sharing…
The Course says so many gorgeous things in this arena, I just want to shout them all ~ all at once… Here's a little reference in chapter 30.V-VII…
God is the love in which I fulfill my function of forgiveness. This is my only purpose in this world. And it turns out, it’s the only thing I want ~our purpose together as the one Son of God… only a purpose unifies, and those who share a purpose have a mind as one…
GOD IS THE LOVE IN WHICH I FORGIVE…
One of the most useful mantra-type tools I’ve used has been to keep in my mind the simple fact that by my conscious election or not, every encounter is a holy encounter, an opportunity for both love and forgiveness. Through this practice, I have truly seen that God is the Love in which I forgive… And as one comes to value guilt-less and love more, one can look forward to these exchanges, for the good of all… I wouldn’t miss it for the world! Not the world~and certainly not for a few ‘precious’ moments of seeming specialness, moments of time, stolen temporarily from eternity. No, eternity is mine NOW! Whenever two Sons of God meet, we are given another chance … Each encounter is a holy encounter~ As we see each other we will see ourselves. And HERE is our chance…NOW…
I look at all my thoughts in this so-called life, whether seemingly inside my mind or projected out …these are all holy encounters… all the love of God in which I forgive…thank you my brothers, who are one with me…