Saturday, March 17, 2007

~Lesson 76~ contemplationshare~

Lesson 76:

I am under no laws but God's…

Okay, first off ~THERE ARE NO LAWS BUT GOD AND GOD’S! ~THERE IS NO WORLD ~ AND, THERE IS ANY INDIVIDUAL, PERSONAL LIFE AND PERSON, FONDLY REFERED TO AS DANÉT… Now, I missed this clean FACT completely in the early years with the Course. Sure, I thought I got it. I’m a smart girl… I understood that this was all an elaborate mass illusion based on fear and only love was real and I was love because God who created me was love… But it was just this type of occurrence, like this lesson, where ‘my understanding actually rendered me impotent to allowing the Holy Spirit’s understanding to penetrate and guide me.
It is an absolutely arduous existence to be aware of a split mind and on some level want to keep it that way, to try to squeeze the most out of each, attempting to move back and forth, virtually to attempt to serve two masters…and… to keep this process away from mind~ out of mind… believe me, I know… and the price I paid for doing it this way, the only way I could… Delay ~tragic in time but nothing in eternity~ the acquisition of nothing priced by my valuing it, paid for by my attention ~it was all of nothing, in the end~
~everything - nothing = forgiveness~
I remember the first time I did this lesson~ I am under no laws but God's…
I responded with a combination of some kind of deep recognition of its validity ~and abject terror. I wasn’t honest enough with myself at the time to allow myself to own these states as mine or really bring what I was feeling to conscious awareness, let alone the Holy Spirit. Instead what I did was trust my ego’s ever-ready interpretation and direction. I decided that it was true; I was under no laws but God’s, so therefore, laws that seemed to govern the world were for me to pick and choose from. That I could manipulate my life and mind through this new found ‘truth’ given by a ‘very important authority’ and validate what ever choices I made, the caveat being, intend no harm to others. Don’t get me wrong; this wasn’t a conscious decision-making process. Honestly, who would fall for this if it were laid out directly? This is why the ego never uses a direct approach. The chances of rejection are just too high. So, thinking I was completely off the hook… basically free to do as I pleased, label it ‘good deeds’ and go about saving the world one barter at a time… I proceeded. It’s amazing the energy it takes to support a lie, talk about ‘borrow from Peter to pay Paul’~. It seemed I was always trying to steal ‘time for my self’ ~keep something just for me~ take a break… Although I was aware someplace inside that there was something really off about this, to my identity-seeking ego, it really sounded good. It seemed there was a way to have my cake and eat it to… I never considered the enormity of a much deeper personal law for me, which I now refer to as the ‘law of reciprocity’. And more even more notable, it never occurred to me (until it did) to question the very foundation of the structure of this so-called “new-law”. “Am I a body in a world?” If I am, I am governed by it. And it is a world of reciprocity, born from the parental heritage of scarcity and sacrifice!
~Now, those are not God ~so they cannot be real... And cannot be What I am...
I am thinking about this pervasive belief in reciprocity: give and take, the making of concessions, sacrificing of ‘some thing’ as the price of acquisition~ the obvious payment due to receive concessions in exchange. A law so established and reputable that it is never questioned …no free lunch~ if you want it, you have to pay for it ~ you got sick because …~get what you have coming to you ~ if you can’t do the time, don’t do the crime ~ what goes around comes around ~ it is a major building block in the core structure of the dream of death, we call life.
Yet, GOD GIVES/extends ONLY. Therefore, there is nothing to barter for. We Are, already. We have everything because we are everything as One… Forgiveness reminds us that only this is true and the miracle transforms the mind, bearing witness to the truth by reflecting God’s laws through Christ everywhere we see… Please join me in sinking deeply into the truth this lesson offers us and attempt not to define it for ourselves:

“Hold your mind in silent readiness to hear the Voice that speaks the truth to you… You will be listening to One Who says there is no loss under the laws of God. Payment is neither given nor received. Exchange cannot be made; there are no substitutes; and nothing is replaced by something else. God's laws forever give and never take…
Hear Him Who tells you this, and realize how foolish are the "laws" you thought upheld the world you thought you saw. Then listen further. He will tell you more. About the Love your Father has for you. About the endless joy He offers you… Thus is creation endlessly increased… His Voice will speak of this to us, as well as of the joys of Heaven, which His laws keep limitless forever…

Friday, March 16, 2007

~Lesson 75~ contemplationshare~

Lesson 75:

The light has come…
I have forgiven the world…
Practicing forgiveness is my pledge to take my part in the Atonement ~ forget everything I thought I knew and merely wait to have it shown to me…it is my will joined with God’s through the Holy Spirit to “see what I denied ~ because it is the truth”… Truth is seen only in the light, where all seeing takes place (versus the image-making of the past lie where darkness, the home of the sin, guilt and fear, could hide). Right perception has been restored because forgiveness is the gift of discernment showing unequivocally the false as false and only the truth as true… The light has come… The light has shined away the fog of nothingness that obscured the truth… It is not that “true knowledge” as the course is talking about, has been restored (this is God’s domain). It’s just that, for me, the ‘need to know’ has gone.
One thing that I had wired up not to hear (by way of in my interpretation of a ‘good and successful student of the Course), was that ‘doing it right’ meant leaving this world at will ~ sort of the ability to dematerialize and rematerialize at will~ this would be the proof that I ‘really got it’. ( As if there really is a world to materialize/dematerialize in and from, yes?)
Where does the Course say this, you ask? NOWHERE, just like all the other lying delay tactics dummied-up by the part of my mind that wanted the ego to have it’s life ~and eat mine too. What the Course does say is that “Knowledge is not the motivation for learning this course. Peace is…” in other words, the Course’s goal is not the state of Heaven, which is the abode of knowledge, but really, the Courses’ goal is for me to live in this world, forgiving my so-called Danét–self, by way of accepting the Atonement for myself, taking my place in God’s plan for salvation of the world into the ‘real world’. This is the circle of Atonement ~seeing only my Self everywhere ~ forgiving everyone and every thing and seeming situation into the pure light of unified purpose~ Truly the light has come, or more likely it has been here all along. Here, in forgiveness’s belly, I am learning to see only from a mind transformed into a state of pure forgiveness, which is a remarkable translation into an experience to total peace, yet more natural somehow than judgment when I didn’t get my way, used to be… know what I mean… This transformation is the attainment of the ‘real world’… So you see, the light has come…
Anyway back to what I was saying about how I used to interpret the goal of the course, I see now this and all the distractions/addictions/perfections were just fear… You know, when you’re in fear it’s hard to hear or read anything that doesn’t support the state of fear. (What we see is always what we see with)
I love the comfort I experienced when I recognized this passage from the text:” Fear not that you will be abruptly lifted up and hurled into reality. Time is kind, and if you use it of behalf of reality, it will keep gentle pace with you in your transition…” (T-16.VI.8: 1-2).
Giving up needing to know what reality is ~or really anything~ has let the presence of ‘reality’ reside with me. Wild eh? Through my little willingness to ‘just follow directions’, so to speak, obviously only to my imperfect, petty, ability (which, by the way, just happened to be enough), wrong perception has been turned right-side-up and a healed or transformed perspective has taken its place. I really don’t know how it happens. But what it feels like is ‘the light has come…I have forgiven the world… and I am now metaphorically retracing my steps, so to speak, remembering how I did it... There is a passage form the Course, in chapter 20, which feels like a metaphorical description of this journey. Here’s what it says: When you have looked on what seemed terrifying, and seen it change to sights of loveliness and peace; when you have looked on scenes of violence and death, and watched them change to quiet views of gardens under open skies, with clear, life-giving water running happily beside them in dancing brooks that never waste away; who need persuade you to accept the gift of vision? And after vision, who is there who could refuse what must come after? Think but an instant just on this; you can behold the holiness God gave His Son. And never need you think that there is something else for you to see.” (T-20.VIII.11)

The light has come. I have forgiven the world, and in its wake is only peace. And I guess I dream of a journey back or a remembering or return ~I don’t know anything about time but I trust the Holy Spirit in the service of miracles is using it to awaken every vestige of the Sonship. I realize now, that the forgiven world is also an illusion. I have ‘accepted the dream the Holy Spirit gave instead of mine’ …and rest in His gentle dream…”the dream of guilt is fading from sight…and although my eyes are closed, a smile has come to lighten up my sleeping face. The sleep is peaceful now, for these are happy dreams” … (T-27.VII.14:8)
I am living where judgments dissolve into forgiveness... I see what the Course means when it talks about the ‘letting go of judgment being the obvious prerequisite for hearing the voice for God’, as well as the tremendous release and deep peace that come from meeting yourself and your brothers totally without judgment’…
I will with my Father and have therefore aligned myself with the One Goal ~ I want only to know my Father's Will for me, and the goal it set forth for application in my so-called life… “In this world you can become a spotless mirror, in which the holiness of your Creator shines forth from you to all around you. You can reflect Heaven here. Yet no reflections of the images of other gods must dim the mirror that would hold God’s reflection in it”…(T-14.IX. 5: 1-3) This
is enough, once a tall order~ now, not only a possibility but a practice in action…and ya know why, cause the Holy Spirit does it… I am reminded of a couple of passages in chapter 29, and these will be the last quotes I’ll reference and share today, matter of fact, it’s a perfect to way to sign off … please join me in the light that has come and the world we have forgiven…
“Forgiving dreams remind you that you live in safety and have not attacked yourself. So do your childish terrors melt away, and dreams become a sign that you have made a new beginning, not another try to worship idols and to keep attack. Forgiving dreams are kind to everyone who figures in the dream. And so they bring the dreamer full release from dreams of fear. He does not fear his judgment for he has judged no one, nor has sought to be released through judgment from what judgment must impose. And all the while he is remembering what he forgot, when judgment seemed to be the way to save him from its penalty…How lovely is the world whose purpose is forgiveness of God’s Son! How free from fear, how filled with blessing and with happiness! And what a joyous thing it is to dwell a little while in such a happy place! Nor can it be forgot, in such a world, it is a little while till timelessness comes quietly to take the place of time. (T-29.IX.10, VI.6). ~In peaceful, joyous appreciation ~the light has come ~

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Lesson 74~musings

Lesson 74:

There is no will but God's…

Isn’t this the only thing that could be true? It always circles ‘round to the same crucial point~ SOURCE: the experience can only reflect or give birth to an experience like itself (its source). It doesn’t have anything else from which to draw. Everything anything is made of and must come from the intrinsic composition of the source itself. Yes? ! And thoughts leave not their source ~we are the LOVE thought of God extended as His Son…
Okay, so in looking closely at all perceived experiences, one must look to its source for meaning. This is where the ego has really had a field day with me, in the past. Loving to examine itself and figure out “why”, the ego, dressed up in “spiritual’ garb and using my desperation to find God, to apologize, to do it right, to be good… would hook me into the loop of seemingly intense and thorough examination of the psyche. “Figure it out so I don’t do it again, but rather ‘create the reality I want’…” Now here’s the thing, and I think many might relate to this pattern, walking the “problem” back to the where the problem began within this world, [“this is because of the way I was raised, this happened, that… Even, ‘this is because of the way I interpreted what happened when it happened (attempting to be responsible)]. It doesn’t work. At best it is a stimulating mental game serving up the big prize of little insights and it feels like you’re ‘getting somewhere’s, which keeps you in the game. At worst it is an exercise in futility and utter despair. This is because we never really get back to the source.
The source of problems /conflicts is not in this world! It is in the mind! ~It is not in the mind housed in the body and ego that we tend to identified with. THERE IS NO WORLD! THERE IS NO BODY AND THERE IS NO EGO!
THERE IS ONLY GOD AND GOD’S WILL CREATING!!! Nothing else is really going on, dude~…There is only the BELIEF(looped back on itself over and over)… that one error, one tiny mad idea of special ness that could obliterate Creation, taken seriously. That is some powerful mind, eh? Its magnitude is really beyond conceptualization. ~Hmm, power such as this must come from a Source so immense… well, you do the math…
Just because we dreamed a dream, a mass hallucination even, of misusing this power doesn’t change the power of the Source from which it came. That Source is what it is and every creation extended from it could only be what it is… the rest is made up… the Atonement principle undid all effects of this silly error. The miracle allows us to shine the light we are on every darkened thought of make-believe we are willing to uncover and dis-identify with. Forgiveness is the practical application of this principle while the mind still thinks it's split and while it re-members itself.
When ever I have sincerely and wholeheartedly attempted to find the True Source of who I am, I have succeeded. Every one of the workbook lessons are geared to this homecoming, this recognition ~ The description of experience given within today’s lesson really captures the immediacy and immensity of peace I have experienced~ every single time I have unequivocally given over to the Truth and allowed released of my ‘self’ to it. I notice myself sinking, even dissolving into PEACE~ “Sink into it and feel it closing around you… you will feel a deep sense of joy and an increased alertness… Joy characterizes peace…
Of course in the beginning the experience was only fleeting, easily discounted as ‘my imagination’ but yet, it called me back to return again and again, increasing in substantial significance, until the ‘reality’ of this peace and surety could no longer be denied. It gradually became more real than the story of the so-called life of danét. So much so, that the lines between the ‘two worlds’ [peace and conflict /oneness and differences] began to blur and eventually the ‘two worlds’ began to blend into One experience of total peace occasionally freckled with seeming conflicts or problems, which really have taken on a shadowy insubstantial essence~ now seen as what they are, forgiveness lessons…
Talk about JOY! ~Ah, the deep abiding joy that comes with knowing that seriously, nothing can rock my world. Nothing can intrude upon the Holy Son of God, himself. This is my will ~the one I share with my Source that created me Love, like himself~ the one I share with you, my brother’s who are one with me.
God’s Will is perfect happiness and there is no will but God’s! Thank God! All glory to God and us ~for we share his Will and nothing else…

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

~Lesson 73~ contemplationshare~

Lesson 73:

I will there be light…
And so it is… not because I will it as “creator of my own reality”, but because what IS has to be so. What is, IS. What IS, is only what can be an expression of its source. This cannot change, since it is the ONLY SOURCE~ the only life. It’s not like there are a bunch of programs for being/existence available to choose from to sponsor the reality of my desire, as the ego’s ‘hard sell’ would have me believe. Doesn’t that sound a little like fantasy? Only One Source means only one~ of even the possibility of ‘being’ or existence. ~ Nothing else ~nothing ~ Can nothing really create? You know what this makes me think about, watching kids play, picking sides and playing make believe… And like the older one will tell the younger one anything to get them to do what they want; make completely far-out claims and promises if they cooperate and wild far-out threats if they don’t. And if the little one doesn’t seem to respond to these tactics, the bigger one will even try the ‘death card’, like ‘fine if you want to die”… there’s no evidence that these threats or promises can be followed though with, and furthermore, require a ‘joint fantasy’ just to play, yet invariably, the little one will buckle and align… hm… sounds familiar… don’t you just want to say to the little one, “Hey, don’t’ take what they’re saying seriously. Its ridiculous, just laugh it off and walk away?…” I do.
This gorgeous peace section in the text is calling to me… please join me in adding it to our lesson practice today… “The holy instant is nothing more than a special case, or an extreme example, of what every situation is meant to be. The meaning that the Holy Spirit's purpose has given it is also given to every situation. It calls forth just the same suspension of faithlessness, withheld and left unused, that faith might answer to the call of truth. The holy instant is the shining example, the clear and unequivocal demonstration of the meaning of every relationship and every situation, seen as a whole. Faith has accepted every aspect of the situation, and faithlessness has not forced any exclusion on it. It is a situation of perfect peace, simply because you have let it be what it is.

This simple courtesy is all the Holy Spirit asks of you. Let truth be what it is. Do not intrude upon it, do not attack it, do not interrupt its coming. Let it encompass every situation and bring you peace. Not even faith is asked of you, for truth asks nothing. Let it enter, and it will call forth and secure for you the faith you need for peace. But rise you not against it, for against your opposition it cannot come.
Would you not want to make a holy instant of every situation? For such is the gift of faith, freely given wherever faithlessness is laid aside, unused. And then the power of the Holy Spirit's purpose is free to use instead. This power instantly transforms all situations into one sure and continuous means for establishing His purpose, and demonstrating its reality. What has been demonstrated has called for faith, and has been given it. Now it becomes a fact, from which faith can no longer be withheld. The strain of refusing faith to truth is enormous, and far greater than you realize. But to answer truth with faith entails no strain at all.
To you who have acknowledged the Call of your Redeemer, the strain of not responding to His Call seems to be greater than before. This is not so. Before, the strain was there, but you attributed it to something else, believing that the "something else" produced it. This was never true. For what the "something else" produced was sorrow and depression, sickness and pain, darkness and dim imaginings of terror, cold fantasies of fear and fiery dreams of hell. And it was nothing but the intolerable strain of refusing to give faith to truth, and see its evident reality”. (T-17.VIII.1-4)

…Today we get to grow up, so to speak. All the fantasies of different authorship are but dreams of darkness, which cannot really exist at all within the light of truth. And all fantasies are one, under the umbrella of the idle wish to father our self ~ that tiny mad idea where we forgot our sense of humor. Can there be enough fantasy to forever cover over the simple truth that darkness cannot hide and what is not of God is not at all?
The past is gone and the light is here, now, we have not left it and it has not left us. Today, we want the freedom to remember Who we really are. God’s plan for salvation, and only His, is wholly in accord with our will and we will succeed today, the time appointed for the release of the Son of God from hell and from all idle wishes. ~Our will is restored to our awareness ~now~ we look upon the light in us and we are saved. We will, together, there be light… we behold the light that reflects God’s Will and ours… then we let our will assert itself, joined with the power of God and united with our Self.
We are released from the fantasy that binds us to this silly prison, this very day because freedom can’t be bound and the holy light of the Son of God dissolves away the structure of fantasy in to the presence of truth. It is my will because it is God’s. And today ~right now~ I will only truth, above all else, right NOW~
I WILL THERE BE LIGHT… and so it is… Here is light and here is truth and here we are as One…
~Thank you for lighting my way, my brothers as we re-member our Self…

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Lesson 72~ contemplationshare~

Lesson 72:

Holding grievances is an attack on God's plan for salvation…

This is the thing, immediately, even perhaps while reading the lesson for today, the option to identify as a body or as mind is a present experience. Which is it? Am I mind? Or do I identify myself as ‘sitting on a chair, housed in a body, reading and contemplating with a brain. Here’s where “setting the goal at the onset,” as the Course, says, reveals itself as imperative, and obvious, to me. “What is salvation, Father? I do not know. Tell me, that I may understand.” Without this clarification by way of asking for it “Father what is salvation?… I want to know”, how can one trust the authenticity of the experience rendered? I have set the goal for TRUTH, it is the only purpose l have or want.
For truth to come I must meet its conditions… I need to be saved from the lie I now believe about who and what and where I am… so intrinsic within the goal of truth, is the goal of salvation… now, every seeming situation or person or thing must be the means for the accomplishment of the purpose set. Do I have faith in this?
Certainly, I have seen how having set a goal in this so-called physical world focused my mind to see and employ only that which could be used as a means for it’s accomplishment. So, I know how the program works. Where is my faith now?
For the longest time, as a student of the Course, I could not really comprehend the experience of “no-body”… Even when my desire to truly understand what was being given to experience through these daily lessons was relatively pure, as single-minded as I could comprehend anyway, I was also aware that I was sort of funneling the awareness for interpretation through a solid construct I identified as myself…
Yet, faith in the goal of truth was somehow the beacon of light I pursued… Gradually, I became more and more aware of the presence this limitation: the attempt to direct my learning and experiencing through this funneling through constructs. Although I lacked confidence in being able to move beyond it, my devotion increased. And, simultaneously, in glimpses, sometimes just teensy instances, a greater awareness essentially began to overcome me; glimpses of ‘no-body’, experienced as Mind-only.
These glimpses, these holy instances, strung together by my faith enfolded a new experience of every seeming situation and thing present in my life. Identification with body/body-mind began to slip and an essence of limitlessness commenced as the abode of my mind. Progressively, this mind-only identification has increased and become much more the ‘authenticity’ of my being and the 'reality' of my world than what once seemed an impenetrable construct of limited form…
The pure certainty present within these glimpses where no question exists, but only timelessness, formlessness, of changeless perfect peace, however fleeting these glimpses seem to be or how quickly I might discount and defend against them, enfolded the Self nonetheless. They hold the entirety of the whole in a holographic holy instant of recognition.
Let me be clear, these are not really tiny moments sandwiched in between other moments in time… Time itself is a concept supporting the belief in separation…. Something to consider, eh?
In Chapter 17 of the text, in the section titled “The Healed relationship”, Jesus talks about the tendency to discount and eventually dismiss the authenticity of our awareness of the experience of the holy instant. Here’s what it says:

"The experience of an instant, however compelling it may be, is easily forgotten if you allow time to close over it. It must be kept shining and gracious in your awareness of time, but not concealed within it. The instant remains. But where are you? To give thanks to your brother is to appreciate the holy instant, and thus enable its results to be accepted and shared. To attack your brother is not to lose the instant, but to make it powerless in its effects.

You received the holy instant, but you may have established a condition in which you cannot use it. As a result, you do not realize that it is with you still. And by cutting yourself off from its expression, you have denied yourself its benefit. You reinforce this every time you attack your brother, for the attack must blind you to yourself. And it is impossible to deny yourself, and to recognize what has been given and received by you.
You and your brother stand together in the holy presence of truth itself. Here is the goal, together with you. Think you not the goal itself will gladly arrange the means for its accomplishment? It is just this same discrepancy between the purpose that has been accepted and the means as they stand now which seems to make you suffer, but which makes Heaven glad. If Heaven were outside you, you could not share in its gladness. Yet because it is within, the gladness, too, is yours. You joined in purpose, but remain still separate and divided on the means. Yet the goal is fixed, firm and unalterable, and the means will surely fall in place because the goal is sure. And you will share the gladness of the Sonship that it is so.
As you begin to recognize and accept the gifts you have so freely given to your brother, you will also accept the effects of the holy instant and use them to correct all your mistakes and free you from their results. And learning this, you will have also learned how to release all the Sonship, and offer it in gladness and thanksgiving to Him Who gave you your release, and Who would extend it through you.” (T-17.V.12-15)

So what happens that interferes with this limitless expansion? What brings forgetfulness to what is indisputably present in these glimpses? It is slipping back into once again identifying as a body amongst other bodies through the mechanism: judgment, in other words, holding grievances… and why? It is the authority problem inherent in and at the root of this dream we call the world. It is competition with God for authorship of life. Actually, any definition, I, myself place on anything, including what the Course is saying, is saying, “i know and God does not … I am the boss of my life.” It is a subtle attack on God’s plan for salvation… how sneaky the ego is, eh … and one is flipped right back again to: “I don’t know what anything means”, etc…
“What is this for?”, is the obvious initiation to every situation … then faith will handle the means of its accomplishment.
Thank you for joining with me in the One purpose, unified and sure… we are the salvation of the world through the One plan that can and will bring about its achievement… I want only to know my Father’s Will for me… We set this single goal together and together we are answered with salvation from the false and return to the TRUE ~I AM AS GOD CREATED ME…

Monday, March 12, 2007

Lesson 71~ contemplationshare~

Lesson 71:

Only God's plan for salvation will work
I want no other and I have no other Finally, I can honestly say this is the only truth for me. Each day and moment and holy instant within each moment I sing the prayer of gratitude for this one truth The words of the prayer offered in this lesson, “What would you have me do? Where would you have me go? What would you have me say and to whom?” have been literally a beacon of light directing me back to mind where hearing the voice for God could be available for my guidance. Often, it has been the only memory that I knew of ‘another way’, somewhere, somehow, even if I couldn’t comprehend it at the time, being too thickly immersed in ‘Danét-ness’. It has never failed me. Results have been proportionate to how sincere I have been in wanting ONLY God’s plan for salvation and nothing I had designated to make me ‘feel better at the time’. Salvation is NOW, it has already been accomplished and all seeming ‘time it takes’ to return to the memory of Him, turns out to be my lack of sincerity, how invested I am in my competition game with God. So often I have used the ‘holy spirit’ concept for my ‘feel-better-so-I-can-control-better’ plan for salvation. Of course, I wasn’t in touch with it at the time, given that the purpose for the game is to render one mindless, and as the Course says, “no goal survives its purpose.” Promisingly, gratefully, this hasn’t mattered dittly to God’s plan for salvation with the Holy Spirit as the medium for bringing me back to it. The slightest instant of pure willingness on my part, and there, big as life, holding mine, has been the miracle. And with it all I once perceived shown before me, washed with the brilliant light of Christ. The miracle waits on willingness not on time. And the Holy Spirit is always at-the-ready for the slightest invitation to fulfill His part in the glorious plan of Atonement. It’s hilarious (I used to think ‘tragic, here) how obvious this is, once you see it for what it is “ONLY GOD’S PLAN WORKS”, only God’s plan brings peace and happiness~ NOW, it’s like duh! And, yet we persist in the seek-and-do-not-find game of winning over God as if
That’s the hilarious part! What could be real about that? I’m too cracked up
every silly (seemingly serious) problem I have dummied up, when followed back to its logical conclusion, finds itself and me in the big cosmic belly laughI just can’t take it seriously Now there’s a miracle, coming from “miss “we gotta take this shit seriously” Love too, waits on welcome, not on time... Forgiveness is all there is left to allow the Holy Spirit to do for us through the miracle of Atonement, my little part is my willingness to have my mind returned and my thinking reversed which allows all things to be seen in the light of forgiveness my part is to have faith a little while till my resistance is being dissolved my part is to trust my brothers are doing their part perfectly and the One Who Knows is orchestrating and actually accomplishing it ‘i’ need do nothing, except to chanellize all my efforts into not interfering. (And to be honest, that’s pretty much a full time job) Only God’s plan for salvation will work it is at workright hereright now can’t you just feel the peace that comes with this acknowledgement
“The Song of Prayer” says that the secret of true prayer is to forget the things you think you need and gift yourself over to the Holy Spirit
and here in this lesson is a template for that application in our so-called lives, again:
“What would you have me doWhere would you have me goWhat would you have me say and to whom?
and off we go down the yellow brick rode together, as it folds back into nothing behind us through our forgiveness, hand in hand, through the ark of peace and the recognition of Heaven right hereright now united in purpose ONE SON: CHRIST my love for you has burst me from my seems and I sing the chorus of eternal gratitude ...

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Lesson 70~contemplationshare~

Lesson 70:

My salvation comes from me…. I am one who sought every possible, sneaky avenue, outside myself to transfer the responsibility this truth entails. Even when I ‘got it’ that guilt and happiness/unhappiness were an inside job, that no one could ‘make me guilty or happy, sad, angry, etc., still I was unwilling to accept the power of God within and as my own. But the Holy Spirit, on to my game, is always gently patient with his presence and guidance… And once I had truly made the decision for salvation, every means was employed for its accomplishment… Sometimes this came in what could only be called “inspiration”.
Much of the unveiling of my Self, however, seemed to come only through the excavation of the hidden, seemingly unconscious structure comprising an idea construct, which I came to label “powerlessness”. Being armed with the high-minded, elitist “we create our own reality” construct, I felt prepared to triumph. I was sure I could manipulate, add to, eliminate [whatever it took, anyway], to secure control over the thinking/believing processes in my mind and therefore my so-called life. This would, of course, result in peace and harmony and happily ever after (*note: confidence in the ego is confidence in ‘nothing’ –who would have guessed) … I did not see the need for excavation… and much of what came up felt almost blind-siding and certainly unacceptable, to me, as a self-concept. This excavation, if you will, brought me face-to- face with many ‘uglinesses’, which I responded to with utter shamefulness and secrecy ~ while I meanwhile, ‘I worked out my plan for salvation-through-control’… Oh my heart, it was a tremendous burden, I didn’t realize the extent of this weighty, burden really, until it was lifted from me and freedom was in its place… Thank you God, for the miracle: the perception that heals all perception… “I forgive and see this differently, I forgive and this will disappear”…
Okay, so here’s the thing I finally disposed into… The answer doesn’t come from me, although it is within my mind where God placed it, to save it for me; God would not have put the remedy for the sickness where it cannot help. “That is the way your mind has worked, but hardly His. He wants you to be healed, so He has kept the Source of healing where the need for healing lies”. Only the Holy Spirit knows the wholeness of the answer given by God, ‘i’ do not. Still, complete with guidance and oneness, all of it is mine for the asking. This is what does the saving~ I recognize I need saving and ask for the answer, already given me, and the power of God’s creation, re-members its completion in God. So complete and whole, in fact, that nothing else could possibly ever occur at all. I cannot access my salvation remedy as long as I attempt to do it from within this dream. So since this dream I call my so-called life is a projection from my mind, the return to mind is obviously the first order of business. I am the dreamer of this dream. Once that shift has truly been accepted, it is relatively easily to note the two exclusive thought systems: God ~ not God, Love ~fear, separation ~ forgiveness. For me, it required immense honesty to see that this one choice was really all choices, and all error had its origin in my choosing the one which wasn’t real. (Of course, from that a universe of total unreality spun out…duh, to see the movie now, eh…)
Okay, here’s the next thing: “The seeming cost of accepting today's idea is this: It means that nothing outside yourself can save you; nothing outside yourself can give you peace. But it also means that nothing outside yourself can hurt you, or disturb your peace or upset you in any way. Today's idea places you in charge of the universe, where you belong because of what you are. This is not a role that can be partially accepted. And you must surely begin to see that accepting it is salvation.”
ONLY the return to mind has any effect what-so-ever on getting me saved! All other tactics are basically futile and therefore a delay tactic… thank God, the Holy Spirit uses each and every miscreation; perfectly and seemingly specifically designed and orchestrated for each “special-me” ~to bring to mind the one illusion ~FORGIVENESS~ that heals them all and transforms what seemed like separate individuals and differences ~ into sameness and One mighty brotherhood ~ the Son as God created Him! …”God's purpose was to ensure that it did”.
… We see that the false is false and only the truth is true. Special relationships begin to take on the characteristics of the ONE-relationship with our Creator, all seeming gaps are bridged… what once appeared so tangible and real is seen for the shadow of the ancient thought long since past; till the only eraser marks of this illusion are left to show what was drawn on the screen of a so-called life and world apart for God. And we are not alone …We take each other’s hand and walk through the cloud of unreality together and with it the entire host of Heaven….a mighty force dispelling the clouds of guilt and all calls for Love. So, there ya go, ‘Within me is the world's salvation and my own’….